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(projector clicking)
(soft music)
(party goers chattering)
(Maggie vomiting)
- I'm so sick of being a
walking list of side effects.
- At least you're not covered
in a rash like last time.
Thank you for finally
makin' it out.
- Hey, of course.
Good to see you guys.
- Good to see ya.
I have to believe that
we're getting closer.
Do you wanna go lay down?
- I can't.
- Hey, kid. (laughs)
- You made it!
- Oh, nice place you got here.
I had to pay Sacagawea
four blue beads
to help me find the place, but
yes, the party can now begin.
- It is not that far out.
- From where I am?
I can't believe that Tom
actually commutes in every day.
- Are you kidding?
He loves the extra reading time.
(Yvonne laughs)
- So, Maggie,
may this place give
you the peace, quiet,
and inspiration to write
another best-seller.
And Tom, may the tenure
committee never get wind
of the fact that you
have a private golf hole
in your backyard, lest
they give this position
to somebody who
actually needs it.
(party goers laugh)
Cheers.
- [Party Goers] Cheers.
(party goers chattering)
- I mean, I feel like
I'll have a to do list
on my tombstone, but so
far we're pretty happy.
- I can imagine.
See, this is why I have
not moved in 15 years.
No, really.
What does one do
with a third floor?
- We pretend it doesn't exist.
- I mean, I threw some of
the old owner's furniture
up there, but I think
we could've just
shared the house with them.
- Oh hi, Jeremy.
Thanks for coming.
- Maggie, could I steal
you away for just a sec?
- Oh, we don't have
anything to discuss yet.
- Actually, that's what
I'd love to discuss.
- I'm not keeping any secrets.
- Okay, (chuckles) okay.
Listen, you know
what I'm gonna say.
They just wanna see that
you're on track to deliver.
A first chapter, a
synopsis, an outline,
hell, they'll even take a
good one-liner at this point.
- Here, there's everything.
- I can't buy you much
more time, Maggie.
Now, you can always
rewrite it later,
but right now you have
to give me something
to create the
illusion of progress.
- Then it sounds like
you can write it.
- Maggie, they have made
a major investment in you.
Yes?
- Fine.
I'll get you something.
- Thank you.
Congratulations.
It's really quite a lovely home.
- Well you must
be feeling better.
- At least I have an appetite.
I think everyone
had fun, don't you?
- Yeah.
That Jeremy's a force.
- I don't know what he
expects me to give him.
I mean, it's not like
I can write anything
when I'm this foggy.
Maybe I should
just go off my meds
until I'm out of this funk.
- No, Maggie.
- Just 'til I get the
synopsis out the door,
maybe a few chapters.
- It'll come.
All writers go through this.
- Will you still love me when
the bank takes away the house?
- And they kick
us to the street.
- Prove it.
(Maggie laughing)
- Hm.
- Mm.
(blender buzzing)
(disjointed music)
(ominous music)
(waves crashing)
(wind chimes tinkling)
(soft ambient music)
(water running)
- [Tom] There you are.
Why'd you put this guy on, huh?
- I need to tell you something.
- Okay.
What is this?
- Open it.
- Really?
- Looks like it.
- But how did we even--
- I think it was that night
that we finished
unpacking and...
- Right, um, did you
talk to Dr. Ambrose?
- I did some research but
I wanted to tell you first.
- Wow. (chuckles)
This is a lot to
take in, isn't it?
- Well it's not
ideal, but it's partly
why we moved out here, right?
- Yeah, yeah.
- You don't seem excited.
- No, no, I am, I am.
I'm just, I'm just, processing.
I am.
- You could've fooled me.
- Oh no, I just...
I don't know.
Never mind.
- What?
- Well, I guess my mind
just automatically goes
to what could go wrong.
You know, I want our
children to be healthy
and if we go the
traditional route
there's just statistically a
higher chance of, you know.
- I don't know.
Are you saying you don't
consider me healthy?
- No, I'm not saying that.
- Because I like my life.
I like who I am and
I'm beginning to
wonder if you do, too.
- That's not fair.
I love you and I love
everything about you.
But I see it as,
if we could potentially
protect them
from certain struggles,
don't we owe it to them
to at least discuss that?
- It's not a hypothetical.
We're pregnant.
- And I'm saying that
I don't want the baby.
I only wanna be sure that
we are making this decision
for the right reasons and
that it is a decision.
- I know we were gonna
plan this out the right way
and even adopt, but
now that it's happened
I know this is what I want.
- It scares me a little.
- Me, too.
But we're ready.
We're gonna be great parents.
- Okay.
Okay. (exhales)
Let's be excited.
- All right, we may be
able to change your meds
to try and reduce the
chance of birth defects,
but (sighs) it has
taken us a long time
to find a combo that works.
Now we could go back to first
generation antipsychotics,
category Cs, and even try ECT.
Now those have the
most clinical evidence,
but I have to tell
ya even if we do,
there is no risk free option.
- So I have to
stay on something?
- Yes.
Maggie, with your history?
Yes.
- Can we at least
lower the dosages?
- Look, it's a challenging
situation, I know,
but do you remember where
you were 18 months ago?
You may feel good now,
but the pregnancy's
only gonna make it harder
to stay in balance.
- But I've read that you can
lower or taper off and be fine.
- And what have I said
about online threads?
- I know, I just
really think that there
have to be other options.
- Huh.
In some cases there
are, but I'm afraid
that I can not
recommend them for you.
(soft ambient music)
(footsteps pattering)
(piano music)
(ominous ambient music)
- There are already several
risk factors for the child
since the pregnancy
was unplanned
and you're still on medication.
What I'm saying is that
we can greatly reduce
those factors by titrating
off the medication
as soon as possible.
Usually I don't
recommend the mother
be on anything stronger
than a baby aspirin.
- How long has my
wife been seeing you?
- I know Maggie's history.
- Well, I don't have the
benefit of a medical degree,
but all it took
was a quick search
to know that in a
case like ours--
- It is my obligation
to outline the serious,
possible, outcomes for the baby.
- I think we should
listen to the doctor.
- I think that
we've heard enough.
- I will let you two
discuss this privately.
- Don't bother.
And I just have to say,
I think it's unbelievably
irresponsible of you
to just wheel out
stock medical advice
without factoring in her past.
- Mr. Schaeffer, I assure
you I have taken everything
into consideration.
- That she tried to
kill herself before
when she went off her meds.
Are you taking that into
consideration right now?
- Yes.
- Then why would you
try to scare my wife
into going off them
again when you know that?
- The situation is
completely different, Tom.
- All I can offer
is my recommendation
based on actual experience.
- I don't even know
how to respond to that.
- I am so sorry.
- No, not at all.
There'll need to
be some more tests
in a couple of weeks so let
me know what you decide.
You can get dressed.
- [Maggie] Thank you.
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
- [Woman] Maggie!
Ooh ooh
- (panting) Hey.
- I've been seeing you
exercising every day.
- I try.
- [Neighbor] Do you want a
glass of water or something?
- No, I'm fine.
I just, I just wanna
go take a shower.
- Are you all right, dear?
- Hey, hey!
(disjointed music)
You should put your
head between your knees.
Is Tom home?
Is Tom home?
Here, drink this.
- Thank you.
I'm feeling better.
- [Neighbor] Are you sure?
- Yeah, yeah, I just needed
to take it easy for a minute.
(electric razor buzzing)
I promise.
- [Tom] You do?
- Yes.
You're totally right, I
just worry about the baby.
- I love you so much.
And we can only control
what we can control.
And the thought of
losing you terrifies me.
- I'm not my father.
- I know that.
I know that you're not.
You just have to be
extra careful, you know?
- Yup.
- I'll meet you in bed.
(somber music)
- So will you tell your
mother about the baby?
- I haven't even
thought about it.
Considering we're not speaking,
I'm not sure how I would.
Tom says I don't even owe
her my vote and I agree.
- Well, it could be an
opportunity for you both
to forgive and potentially heal.
- I don't think I want my child
to have a relationship with her.
- I mean, yes, my
book jeopardized her
reelection campaign,
but she basically
chose her seat over me
and I still don't
forgive her for that.
- Do you regret sharing
any of those details now?
- No.
She did ruin my father's
life and my childhood
and her reaction made me
realize that there was no point
in even trying to
have a relationship.
- You think that's
a fair perspective?
- [Maggie] She's the parent.
- No, I mean about your father.
- I think she had a
lot to do with it, yes.
I mean, when you're with
someone like my father
you have a responsibility
to look out for them
and she never made
any sacrifices for us.
I mean, I'm over wishing
someone would send her
an envelope full of anthrax,
but I still don't trust her.
- Now you know that I give
you the benefit of the doubt
when you say things
like that, right?
- That's why I say
things like that.
- So have you thought through
whether you wanna
change your meds?
I know it was weighing on
you pretty heavily last time.
- It was.
- And?
- No.
- Okay, well we'll
just stay the course.
- I meant no, I've
stopped taking them.
- Maggie, you know I
can't support that.
- I don't need you to.
- Why don't we invite
Tom in and we can talk
about this decision as well
as its repercussions together.
- I do not give you
permission to contact him.
He has made it very
clear that he has
no objectivity on this issue.
- And you think you do?
You know, wanting to
go off your medications
can itself be a symptom
of the disorder.
- Are you questioning
my motivation?
- I'm saying it can
be difficult to see
why you make a
decision from inside.
I mean, do you
think it's possible
that telling me is your
way of asking for my help?
- No.
- All right, I'm aware that I
didn't give you many options,
but I would much rather
you go on a lower dosage
or try a different medication
than go off them altogether.
- I can't take those
drugs without thinking
about what they're doing.
I was already on them
too long as it is.
- Well then I need to go back
to seeing you two times a week.
Maybe more.
I mean, it's going
to be critical
that we closely
monitor your progress.
- Well, I can already
tell that this commute
is going to be too much with
my new writing schedule.
If anything, I'd
like to scale back.
- Maggie.
The chance of relapse
was high enough
with you just getting pregnant.
Going off your meds
all but guarantees
that you will suffer
a severe episode.
Now I need you to
understand that.
- I'd like to call it a day.
(pensive electronic music)
What about The Severed Self?
And you can still
keep An Exploration
of Selfhood in 19th
Century Literature.
- Yeah.
Yeah, I like it.
Is it too gothic?
- You're writing about
Jekyll and Hyde, right?
- Well, I have to include it,
but there are a
lot of other texts
where the author or
protagonist's duality
or division are central.
Like Wilde's Picture
of Dorian Grey,
Tennyson's Idylls of
the King, Jane Eyre.
I'm also looking
at philosophical
and scientific
works for context.
- I wanna say you did
a lecture on this.
Something like how
meeting your double
was considered an omen of death.
- Yes, that was my lecture.
Thank you for remembering
it so clearly.
Mm-mm.
- I'm sure I was
very distracted.
- Okay.
- I found a reproductive
psychiatrist today.
Her name is Dr. Ellen Burke
and she's very impressive.
- Okay, good.
Did you find her in the city?
- No, out here.
- Huh.
Even better.
Want me to go with you?
Okay.
Understood.
(ominous ambient music)
- Don't tell anyone
else, though, okay?
It's probably too early
to even have told you.
- Of course, yeah.
And you're feeling good?
- Yeah.
I mean, at first I was vomiting
like it was college
all over again.
- I shoulda given you a buzz cut
I held your hair back so often.
- Stop. (chuckles)
But now I'm...
I'm great.
Tired, but great.
- Did you guys decide
against adopting?
- It's still an option.
It's a big house.
- I guess I was more
asking what shifted.
- Well, it was a surprise.
- That makes a lot more sense
because you didn't tell me
you were trying.
- Yeah we weren't.
And I'm still on my meds
so it's complicated.
I mean, we won't even
know for six more weeks
if they've affected the baby.
- It sounds like you
found out early enough
to be able to make
an informed decision.
And no matter what happens,
if it comes down to that,
it'll be for the best.
- What the fuck, Yvonne?
- No!
Then (scoffs) you'll
be able to adopt.
Or plan it out with your doctor
and have a less
stressful experience.
I'm just saying if
it's viable or not
you can still start a family.
- So glad you came
out for the weekend.
(somber music)
(Maggie knocking)
- [Yvonne] Come in.
(ominous music)
(baby cries)
(doorbell rings)
(baby crying)
("Shucking and Jiving"
by Lisa Papineau)
Slowly I'm caught
in the middle of
Slowly I'm caught
in the middle of
And now we are burning alive
- Are you sure I
can't take you later?
I'll make you breakfast.
- No, I gotta get back.
I have to memorize these lines.
Thanks, though.
- I liked having you
out here this weekend.
- Me, too.
I must say, I don't mind
having a country house.
We should do it more
when I get back.
- Deal.
- Mm, will I see
you before I leave?
- If you want. Text me.
- [Tom] Ready to go?
- [Yvonne] Yes, professor.
- I'm sweaty.
- I love you.
- Me, too.
- [Dr. Ambrose] I can't
stress how critical it is
that you stay
consistent with someone
who's been with you through
your entire history.
Like a river running
wild she's away
Like a river running
wild she's away
- [Dr. Ambrose] Maggie.
- What?
Away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
- One last breath.
(Maggie exhales)
Good.
Nice and clear.
Have the bananas been helping?
- Yeah, I don't feel
that nauseous anymore.
- Great, great.
It's my little trick.
- Before you go I'm gonna
get my book for you.
- No, no, no, no, I'll buy it.
- Don't be silly, Skylar,
it's just upstairs.
I just feel weird that
you're gonna read it.
- It's you.
I wanna be on your turf.
I've actually meant
to read it for years.
- Years?
You make it sound like
it's been out forever.
(tense music)
- Hi.
- Hi.
- [Henry] Are you Maggie?
- [Skylar] No,
she's just upstairs.
I'm Skylar, a midwife.
- [Henry] I'm Henry.
I'm here for a piano lesson.
- I always wanted to
learn an instrument.
- It's never too late.
I hope you don't mind.
I weaseled my way in.
- No, no.
Happy you're here.
- Thank you.
It'll be so great for the
baby to be around music.
- That's what I thought.
I always was.
My dad would play
for hours on end.
- Shoot for music.
This is the first
lesson so no promises.
And no expectations.
- Oh well, yeah.
First since I was a little girl.
Hopefully something stuck.
- Babies aren't picky.
(piano music)
- Come again?
(Henry chuckles)
- We just need to tap back
in to your muscle memory.
It's all in there somewhere.
- If it is it's pretty buried.
- I can't tell you how
many of my students
lose interest after a few years.
- I stopped after my dad died.
It reminded me too much of him.
- Sorry to hear that.
- Piano's a good memory.
- I should warn you
that I don't accept it
when my pupils don't practice.
If you don't put the effort
in what's the point, right?
- Couldn't agree more.
- Great, well, I expect
you know the drill.
Practice the song
and do pages seven
through 12 in the workbook.
I'll see you same
time next week.
- Same time.
(phone ringing)
Now he's calling the home phone.
(phone beeps)
Hello?
- [Man] Hello, I have Jeremy
on the line for Miss Black.
(speaking in foreign language)
Jeremy, will you pick up?
I can't understand what
this woman is saying.
(speaking in foreign language)
- [Jeremy] Maggie,
are you there?
(speaking in foreign language)
Oh come on, cut the crap.
- Pardon?
- [Jeremy] You know, I guess
I'd be avoiding me, too,
if I'd written the
synopsis that you sent me.
Frankly, it's lacking.
- Maybe you should
just talk to him.
- [Jeremy] There's a lot
of good stuff in there,
but it's just not
ready to (mumbles).
- I thought you said
we just had to create
the illusion of progress.
- [Jeremy] Yeah, but I
didn't expect this direction.
It's not in your voice, Maggie.
It's not what they want and
it's not what's going to--
(phone beeps)
(notebooks banging)
(somber music)
(rain pattering)
- Do you wanna hold her?
- She's so tiny.
(Maggie chuckles)
(ominous music)
- We should put her
back before we hurt her.
- One second.
- You need to put her back.
(baby squelching)
Tom.
(Maggie gasping)
- Maggie.
(Maggie whimpering)
Sh, sh.
Maggie!
Sh, look, stop, stop, stop.
Sh, sh, sh.
(Maggie breathing heavily)
It's okay, it's okay,
it's okay, it's okay.
Sh, sh, sh.
Hey.
- [Maggie] Hey.
- You feelin' better?
You scared me last night.
- I'm fine.
- What were you dreamin' about?
- It was nothing.
Kim?
I've got a load of
towels in the washer.
Can you switch 'em to the dryer?
I'm gonna run upstairs.
- Yes, of course.
- You were screaming.
- Stop exaggerating.
Tom.
- What's up?
- Why did you bring
that up in front of her?
- It was just a dream.
I didn't think it
would embarrass you.
- Well it did.
I don't want everyone
knowing the details
of my private life.
- Well I guess I don't
equate Kim with everyone.
- She practically works
for half the town.
- I don't think she's the type.
- Then you're naive.
I'm sorry.
Jeremy really pissed me off
and I'm taking it out on you.
- That's fine.
He's an asshole.
- I just don't need
the added pressure
on top of everything else.
- It's really hard
to start a book,
especially when the
expectations are so high.
- Intellectually
I understand that,
but every other part of me
just wants to punch a wall.
I'm going to sleep.
(pensive music)
(phone buzzing)
Hello?
- [Woman] Hi, may I
speak with Miss Black?
- Speaking.
- [Woman] This is the
clinic calling with results
from your screenings.
- Hi.
- [Woman] So I see
here that your tests
did not show any signs
of abnormalities.
- My AFP levels?
- [Woman] Normal.
- So there aren't any signs of--
- [Woman] The tests showed
no irregularities, ma'am.
Can I go ahead and get you set
up for another appointment?
(suspenseful music)
- It's a healthy baby!
- I knew it!
I'm comin' in.
(waves crashing)
- Tom?
Tom, you awake?
Tom, you awake?
- [Tom] Hm?
No.
- I can't sleep.
- Try your left side.
They say that's the best.
- Tom.
Tom.
(Tom grunts)
(ominous music)
- One more breath,
and breathe out.
Good.
Good.
You can also take a
warm sea salt bath
with lavender at
night to help you
get into a meditative state.
- So it's pretty normal then?
- Oh yes.
Everybody has sleep
disturbances at some point.
And there is one
more thing we can do.
Use your hands, not your
stomach muscles to get up.
- What are you doing?
(Yvonne laughs)
- We are hiding your clocks.
- Why?
- To take the pressure off.
I want you to allow
yourself to connect
with the internal rhythm.
- Okay.
I'll try anything.
(tense electronic music)
- [Tom] Where is my alarm clock?
- I bought you a coffee.
- I'll have to take it with me.
- It's gonna get cold.
- Maggie, you are so sweet,
but I don't have time.
- Aren't you going to ask
how the appointment went?
I thought you wanted
to be more involved.
- I have a meeting
with the dean in, like,
I don't even know
how many minutes
because there are no clocks.
Maggie.
Maggie!
(Tom grunts)
Of course I wanna
know how it went.
I'll call ya after the meeting.
(piano music)
- You haven't been practicing.
- No, I haven't.
I've been writing.
- I'm disappointed.
- My writing's a
little more important.
Don't take offense.
- Why don't you take the
rest of this hour to practice
and we'll meet up
again next week.
- Wait, can we at least talk?
My husband's been
working a lot recently
and I've just been
bouncing around this house.
I mean, I am paying
you for this time.
- And I'm teaching
you a valuable lesson.
- So fucking dumb.
- Language.
(ominous music)
- Tom.
Tom.
- Hm?
- You can throw your
own shower, right?
- What?
- Baby shower.
- I don't know, Mags.
I'm sleeping.
- Is it weird if I throw my own?
No one's offered.
I mean I guess I don't
see anyone anymore.
- You can do whatever you want.
- That's what I think, too.
When Yvonne gets back.
Tom.
- [Tom] Huh?
- I'm horny for you.
- (grunts) Again?
I'm so tired.
- Come on.
- Maggie.
(Tom whimpering)
- I thought I was gonna love
this part of the pregnancy.
(couple grunting)
(Tom chuckles)
What's all this?
- Baby shower invites.
- Oh, right.
You sure you'll be up for it?
- I'm having a shower, Tom.
- And I would not
try to stop you.
Nor could I.
It looks like you've made
half of them already.
- Where are you going?
- Work.
- I thought you had today off.
- Well, I don't
have any classes,
but I'm gonna go
do some writing.
- Aw.
I had so much fun
with you last night.
I was kind of expecting to
have more fun with you today.
I mean, we have this big
house at your disposal.
Why don't you work from home?
- I would, but I think I
have to meet with Kelly.
- Who?
- One of my thesis advisees.
She's helping me with
some of her research.
I'm sure I've
mentioned her to you.
- Not that I remember.
- Well, she's a big help.
- Mm.
I could be a big help.
- (chuckles) Okay.
You have your own work to do
and that is not the kind of
help that I'm talking about.
(ominous music)
- Maggie?
- Paul!
What a wonderful surprise.
Did you stop by to
give me a lesson?
- That I did.
No, I texted Tom.
He didn't tell you?
- He's in the city
working on his book.
- Ah, got it.
Yeah, I was driving
down from Boston
and figured I'd stop
in on my way home.
- Glad you did.
- You look amazing, as usual.
- Stop, I feel like an elephant.
- Were you really playing golf.
- Yeah, I was taking a break.
But I'm terrible.
- Feet shoulder distance apart.
Very good.
Okay, center of the club face
should line up with the ball,
and swing through.
(club crunching in grass)
- I think my
stomach's in the way.
- Maybe.
But, um...
Okay, if you just
keep your head down
and keep your eye
right on the ball,
this way you're gonna see
the club make contact.
And then your follow through.
(club thuds into ball)
(Maggie chuckles)
There it is.
- I think I shacked up
with the wrong professor.
(Paul chuckles)
- Yeah, I'm sure
that Tom would love
to help you with your swing.
In fact, maybe you shouldn't
even mention our session.
- I won't if you don't.
(ominous ambient music)
(Paul laughs)
I could fill a pool with
that and swim around
until I was all
sticky with pulp.
- Does being pregnant
make you that thirsty?
- Being pregnant makes
you that everything.
(Paul exhales)
Do you remember when
you taught me to waltz?
- Of course I do.
When we were all at
Ed Quinn's house.
- I'm using it in my new book.
- Oh you are, are ya?
So what, I'm a character now?
- Highly fictionalized.
Do you wanna come
upstairs and read it?
- No.
I should really let
you get back to work.
I am sure I've helped you
procrastinate enough
already today.
I really gotta get
back to the city.
(suspenseful music)
- It's safe.
(Paul grunts)
(couple breathing heavily)
- Mags?
(keyboard clicking)
There you are.
Why don't you have the light on?
I didn't even know
that you were home.
(keyboard clicking)
Maggie?
- Yeah.
- What are you doing?
- Writing.
- Oh.
How's it comin'?
- Quickly.
- Well I'm really proud of
you for stickin' with it.
- I'm kind of on a roll
if you could just...
- Stay on your roll.
(pensive music)
(woman whispering)
Sorry, I know you don't
like interruptions,
but I heard that
babies need food.
- You have perfect timing.
I can't sit here anymore.
What if we go to the city?
I'm craving a massive burger
from that place in The Village.
- Maggie, my thesis students
are coming today, remember?
- Oh shit, that's today?
All right, well I'll just
go to the grocery store
and get stuff for burgers
and maybe sweet potato
fries or something.
- Mags, we talked about this.
Kelly's a pescatarian.
We're having grilled
salmon and salad.
Are you feeling okay?
It's early enough I
can call and cancel.
They would understand.
- No, no, it's pregnancy brain.
I just forgot they were coming.
I mean, you've got it covered.
You even thought to ask
about dietary restrictions.
- All right.
Do you have a salad
dressing preference?
- Yes, yes.
Don't use a bottled one.
Olive oil, salt, pepper,
some herbs, balsamic.
You know, why don't
I just make it
because I don't have a recipe
and the ratios have to be right.
So I'll just make it.
Or you can make it
if that's easier.
- Maybe you should go walk on
the treadmill or something.
I think you've been cooped
up in here a little too long.
- [Maggie] Yeah.
What time are they coming?
- One.
- Yeah, okay.
Great, I have time.
I just have a
piano lesson at 11.
(piano note dinging)
- [Tom] Where's Henry?
- I don't know.
- [Tom] I thought I'd get the
chance to finally meet him.
- I must have
messed up the date.
I feel like he would've told
me if he was gonna cancel.
- [Tom] Well, you
can play for me.
- No, I've gotta get
ready for your students.
- [Tom] Oh, come on.
I'd love to hear what
you've been working on.
- Don't put me on the spot, Tom.
(doorbell rings)
- [Tom] Come on in.
Did you have any trouble
finding the place?
- [Kely] Nope.
Jack has a car.
- [Jack] Yeah, it's
a super easy trip.
- [Tom] Mags!
- [Kelly] Your
home is (mumbles).
(ominous music)
(Maggie thuds)
- [Tom] Maggie.
Maggie.
What happened?
Why are you up here?
- Nothing, I slipped.
- [Tom] Did you hit your head?
Let me see.
- I'm fine, just help me up.
(ominous music)
That's my research for the baby.
- Fuck.
Fuck.
Maggie.
- [Maggie] What?
- How long has it been this bad?
- All pregnant women nest.
- No, if this was
nesting the baby's room
wouldn't be practically empty.
- [Maggie] I'm planning.
- Just stay up here and rest.
I'm gonna cut them short.
- I don't see why.
- I want you to stay
up here and rest
until we can talk
about this, okay?
Maggie, please acknowledge me.
My students are
downstairs, okay?
- Okay.
- [Kelly] You could layer in.
- Mm-hm, mm-hm, it's perfect.
That'll be great for
the end of the chapter.
Good work.
- [Kelly] Thank you.
- Hi.
- Oh my gosh.
Miss Black, I am
such a huge fan.
It's amazing to meet you.
I'm Kelly.
- It's nice to meet you, too.
- Hi, Jack Mallory.
- I'm sorry I didn't come
down and greet you earlier.
The little one's already
making be late for things.
- Shouldn't you be
upstairs resting?
- I'm fine.
You guys hungry?
So what's your thesis on, Kylie?
- It's Kelly.
- It's all right.
I'm writing about the Brownings.
Do you know their work?
- In half I seem to
recognize some trick
of mischief happened to me.
God knows when.
In a bad dream perhaps.
- Child Roland to
the dark tower came.
- Very good.
- A poem of
imagination's revenge.
- I hope that's not
what Tom taught you.
I'd say it's more the
agony of the literary quest
and the dissatisfying nature
of ultimate achievement.
- Yikes.
I hope that's not what
success has taught you.
- I can see why he likes you.
He has a thing for
precocious students.
- Maggie.
- What, am I embarrassing you?
You should know he
used to look at me
the way he looks at you.
Granted you're not
knocked up yet.
That seems to put him off.
- Maggie, you don't
know what you're saying.
You're manic.
- I know exactly
what I'm saying.
You just don't wanna hear it.
- All right, that's enough.
- Oh come on.
I know how easy
you were to seduce.
Almost as easy as Paul.
You guys know
Professor Foley, yeah?
- What are you talking about?
(ominous ambient music)
- Paul and I had sex
while you were at school
presumably fucking her.
- How am I supposed
to deal with that?
- How am I supposed
to deal with this?
(fists bang)
(dishes rattle)
- You promised me.
You made me a promise!
- Look, I swear we
didn't do anything.
- [Jack] Thanks for lunch.
- Maggie?
We need you to come downstairs.
There's some people who'd
like to speak with you.
- What have you done?
- Ma'am, I'm Officer Callahan
and this is my
partner Officer Rose.
Do you mind if we ask
you a few questions?
- Of course.
- Your husband said
that you haven't been
feeling yourself recently.
Is that right?
- I'm fine.
I think Tom may
have overreacted.
- Well, we have to
respond to every call.
- Of course.
- Have you been feeling
anxious or irritable recently?
- No.
- What about this afternoon?
- Well, this afternoon I
found out that my husband
has been sleeping with
one of his students
and I told him that I
slept with his best friend
so naturally there were
some heated exchanges,
but I'd say we share
the responsibility.
- I didn't sleep
with my student.
- Sir.
Do you feel that friends
or family members
want to do you harm?
- No, not physically.
- Not physically.
What do you mean?
- Well I think that calling
you was meant to scare me.
- I see.
Have you been experiencing
suicidal thoughts?
- No, I have no intention
of hurting myself
or anyone else, and I do not
take the situation lightly.
I'm sure Tom has filled
you in on my history.
- Is there anything else
you want to tell us?
- Only that I'm so sorry
you were dragged into this.
- Mr. Schaeffer,
your wife seems fine.
She doesn't meet
any of our criteria
for further intervention
at this point.
- That's it?
You only asked her a
couple of questions.
- Well, like I said, she doesn't
meet any of the criteria.
- She's gone off her meds.
- It's not illegal
to discontinue your
medications, sir.
- I know that.
I mean that it's critical that
she get medical oversight.
My students, they were here.
They could attest
to her behavior.
- You can apply for
a commitment hearing
which will take place
10 days after you file.
At that time you can
have witnesses testify
and introduce other evidence,
but I have to tell you,
Mr. Schaeffer, that
unless your wife
has threatened you, herself,
or anybody else with violence,
the court won't see
a compelling reason
to involuntarily commit.
- Well, I can't just stand
here while she gets worse.
- Your complaint will be logged
and if there's any call for
us to come back to the house
the officers will have
everything on file.
Otherwise there's nothing
else for us to do today.
All right?
- Good evening, ma'am.
- Don't ever do
that to me again.
(ominous ambient music)
(Maggie breathing heavily)
- [Tom] Good morning, Kim.
- [Kim] Oh, good
morning, Mr. Schaeffer.
- [Tom] I have to leave
the house to go to court.
I'll probably (mumbling).
(Kim gasps)
- I'm in here.
- I'm sorry, I didn't realize.
- It's fine.
- I'll start downstairs, yes?
(doorbell rings)
- Come in.
What are you doing here?
- You haven't answered
any of my calls,
any of my texts,
any of my emails.
- [Maggie] Sorry,
I've been busy.
First I was planning
my baby shower
and now I'm actually
planning a garden for spring.
- [Jeremy] Well,
they're done waiting
for your manuscript,
Maggie, and frankly so am I.
- Waiting?
- They're pullin' out.
- But I have it
all ready for you.
- You have what ready?
- I deviated from the
original direction
but I think they'll like it.
You were totally right
about my first draft.
I scrapped that altogether.
What you're holding
there is mostly fiction.
I mean, there's a hint of my
creative non-fiction style,
but it's definitely a novel.
As I was saying, I've
just been so busy.
You know, with the
little one I wanted
to get the book out of the
way so that when she got here
it could be
completely about her.
I mean, don't get me
wrong, I love writing,
but I plan on being 100%
focused on being a mom.
I much preferred it
when my dad was around,
I mean when he was around.
- Maggie, this is
actually very good.
- Oh good.
I mean, it needs
editing, but I've just
been so plagued with, oh
did you get your invite?
- Hm, the what?
- [Maggie] To my baby shower.
- Oh yes, yeah, I did.
- I made them all by hand.
But that's all taken care
of now so I've moved on
to landscape design.
I've been doing a lot
of research online
and I just have so many ideas
for how I can
improve the garden.
I'm thinking an English garden,
rustic and homey,
not too manicured,
but impeccably well designed.
I just want a magical world for
my little baby to wander in,
if that makes sense.
- It's really all
here, isn't it?
- Yeah of course it is.
Except for the epilogue.
I kept trying things,
but they either were
too reductive or
not enigmatic enough
or just plain derivative.
I thought I wanted to see
where they were in 15 years.
You know, the fallout,
how they've changed,
how they haven't changed,
but I just think
that's overdone, right?
- Does Tom know that
you're almost finished?
- I don't know and I don't care.
But I do have drawings
I made of the garden
if you wanna see them.
- I'd love to see
them, I really would,
but I think that we
should really nail down
this epilogue first.
- I'm just thinking about
how I could fit it in
and I just do have
so much going on.
- I get that, I get
that, but if we get
the epilogue out of the
way then you got more time
to focus on the garden, right?
- Okay, here's what we'll do.
I will write out my
top three choices
and then I will give them to you
and then you can
sort through them
and decide what you like best.
- Why limit yourself?
Hm?
Try for five.
- Hi, Duncan.
- [Neighbor] Maggie.
Hey, Duncan, why don't you
give us a second, all right?
- Oh, did he have to pee?
Oh, don't worry, Duncan,
I'm leaving now!
- Hang on a second, hang on.
- Oh, so, I came over to
take a dip in your pool,
which was very nice
of you to offer.
I wish I had taken more
advantage of it this summer,
but it was cold and I
don't think you heat it.
So I just came inside.
I love the clawed feet.
I wish we had a tub
like that in our house.
I'm fine.
- You just got
escorted home naked.
What is it gonna take?
- I'm trying to keep
our baby healthy.
So I was having a bath.
So I have some
hormones flying around.
So what?
- Why don't we sit
down with Dr. Burke
and come up with
some kind of plan
to get us to a healthy birth.
- So you can ambush me again?
I'm not gonna help
you lock me up
so that you can start your
life with someone else.
- What are you talking about?
I am trying to get you
help so we can be a family!
No, please don't.
- Don't follow me!
(ominous ambient music)
- [Tom] She's sleeping now.
I'll bring her by in the
morning when she wakes up.
Thank you for pulling strings.
(waves crashing)
(floor creaking)
(upbeat electronic music)
- I could make you some tea.
- No thanks.
- Well.
I could make toast.
- I'm fine.
(phone buzzing)
- Hey, what's up?
(Tom chattering)
Hold on a sec, I'm
not near my calendar.
It's my agent.
(ominous ambient music)
(suspenseful music)
- I'm sorry, but this
card was declined, too.
Who's Tom Schaeffer?
- My husband.
Here, try this one.
- Traveling from somewhere?
- Why do you need to know that?
- Maybe my manager can help you.
(diners chattering)
(ominous ambient music)
- I thought you were resting.
I didn't wanna wake you.
Did you eat?
- I wouldn't have come here if
I had any other place to go.
- Eat.
- I just need to
stay for a few days
'til I get some clarity
on my situation,
maybe talk to your lawyer.
- I wish you'd told me.
- Why?
- I know we don't
have the relationship
that either of us envisioned,
and I want you to know
that I regret how
I handled things.
- I only wrote that
book so you'd understand
what it was like for me.
- Well, I didn't
necessarily agree
with your view of our
family or even sometimes
your version of events.
Maybe if your timing
had been different
and there hadn't been
so much attention
we could've talked it out, but--
- You really don't
get it, do you?
I shouldn't have come.
- No, no, Maggie, wait.
What I meant to
say was, I'm sorry.
- I didn't come
here to guilt you.
I just need a place to stay.
- And you can't go home?
- It's not that I can't.
Like I said, I just
need to stay here
'til I get clarity
on my situation.
Everything's just
happening all at once
and I just need some
quiet to figure it out.
- And Tom?
He can't help you
figure things out?
- No.
No, he's part of the problem.
He is the problem.
- Why do you think that?
- Has he called you?
- What difference
would that make?
- He's looking for us.
I'm sure of it.
He has his own motives.
- And if he found you?
I don't think it would
be as bad as you imagine.
- You don't know him.
- When you were 18 months old
your father convinced himself
that I was trying to drug him.
When I was out of town
taking depositions
he sent the nanny home, who he
thought was one of my spies.
He put you in a
little blue snow suit
and took you up to the
house in Connecticut.
When he got there
he didn't trust
any of the food at the house.
He thought that somehow
I'd gotten out there, too.
So he put you in the crib,
grabbed his fishing pole
and went out to catch dinner.
You were in that snow
suit in that crib
for almost two days.
I know it sounds
ridiculous now, but...
I've spent so much time
thinking I did something wrong,
that I could've done
something better.
I somehow could've prevented it.
If I didn't have a
career or I was home more
or if I'd only paid
more attention to him.
I blamed myself for not being
able to make him better.
I have come to realize that
neither of us are to blame
and I hope you come
to realize that, too.
- I'm almost finished
with my second book.
I think you'll like this one.
I really think you will.
- [Elizabeth] Get some sleep.
- No!
Mom!
- Come on.
(ominous music)
It's a great facility and
it's right down the road
so I will get to
see you a lot, okay?
What else do you need?
All right, let's go.
(suspenseful music)
I'm gonna give them a call,
let them know that
we're on our way.
Who would you like
to meet us there?
Burke?
- You can call her but
she won't know who I am.
- Are you saying
you've never met her.
Okay.
I will call Ambrose then.
- I'm not seeing him anymore.
- Then who are you seeing?
- Just Skylar.
- Who is that?
- She's my midwife,
she comes to the house.
- Fine, give me her number then.
- I don't have it.
- God damn it, Maggie!
I'm trying to help you.
- I know.
I know, Tom.
I love you.
I don't know what's
going on with me.
- It's okay.
It's okay.
- Just...
I just can't let them take her.
- [Tom] Maggie.
Maggie, stop.
(Tom thudding down the stairs)
(ominous music)
- You're shaking.
- [Skylar] You need to rest.
- [Maggie] Can you
go check on Tom?
- Of course.
- Shh.
Shh.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Everything will be fine.
It's okay.
Shh.
- I'm so sorry.
- I am, too.
And we can hold off on
the hospital for now,
but I need to be more
involved moving forward, yes?
- Okay, I can do that.
- All of this
could've been avoided
if we had just talked about it.
- Well you never
gave us a chance to.
- I was just so worried
about you and the baby
that I didn't even
wanna go down that path.
- Let's not fight anymore.
- I love you, Magpie.
I'm off to work.
(suspenseful music)
(phone beeping)
- [Tom] You have
reached Dr. Schaeffer,
please leave a
message at the tone.
- Tom, please call me back.
I'm worried.
Please call me back.
(phone ringing)
Tom?
- [Jeremy] Mag, no, it's Jeremy.
Listen, I just got off the
phone with the publisher
and they are in love
with your manuscript.
They expect it to be
bigger than the last one,
which means get ready to
pump the fuck out of it.
We're all havin' an
impromptu celebration
in the city tonight.
Can you make it in?
Mag?
(phone beeps)
(suspenseful music)
- Tom.
Tom.
Dad?
(Maggie gasps)
(somber music)
(Maggie crying)
(Maggie sobbing)
(piano music)
- What's going on?
- [Woman] No one's answering.
(Yvonne knocking)
(door rattles)
- Maggie?
Maggie.
- I think I need help.
(water splashes)
- [Yvonne] Maggie?
(machine beeping)
Maggie?
- Is the baby okay?
(baby crying)
Hi.
Hi.
(baby crying)
Hi.
Shh.
(somber music)
Yeah.
("She's the Lucky One"
by Victoria F. Beaumont)
Away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
No one knows where she goes
Only eagles miles high
I can try and bring her back
But she's gone
She's in a world
of mortal lows
Now she's gone,
where no one knows
Like a river running wild
She's away
She's gone away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
She's gone away
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
When times have
faded to the bone
Fluctuated with her soul
Doesn't matter
where she's gone
She's away
Oh she's the lucky one
Ooh
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one
She's the lucky one
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one
No one knows where she goes
Only eagles miles high
I can try and bring her back
But she's gone
She'd drive the
poison out of love
Now she's gone,
where no one knows
Like a river running wild
She's away
She's gone away
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one
She's gone away
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one
She's the lucky one
She's fallin' in love
She's fallin' in love
She's the lucky one