[distorted guitar ringing]
[feedback whining]
[gentle orchestral music]
[metal jingling]
- [muttering indistinctly]
Everything I have in here
you see is one of a kind
This stuff's all chiffon stuff
This stuff's my fancy stuff
I bought these in 1 967
and they're still brand-new
They got great big==
they're low hip-huggers right?
They come down here
And they got great big bells
on 'em man
These are nice leather ones
They're real soft
Feel the leather on those
They're soft
They feel good don't they?
I like a lot of paisley shit
you know
I still got a lot
of paisley shit
and it's all in
perfect condition
These are all
my stage clothes
and I only wore these like
once in a while
because when I used to play
I was saving them
for when I got big
And that never happened
so I saved 'em forever
- So what are his prospects?
Because he keeps giving me
these rosy scenarios
and I don't know
what to believe you know?
- What does he tell you
specifically?
- Well like one thing
I know is a delusion
is that he's going in
the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame
this year or next
[laughs]
I like him to have a dream
though you know?
If he didn't have a dream
he's liable to kill himself
- Are you really gonna do this
as a documentary?
I could go out and play
- I get nervous
You know what I mean?
- Hmm?
- I get nervous that
- Everybody does
He does
They're afraid I'm gonna die
That's okay
I won't
If you guys want me around
I'll stick around
- Please
- If you really do
I mean that in my heart
I mean if you want me around
I'll stick around
For just guys like you guys

[birds chirping]
- I was at a record show
with my girlfriend
and um I found like this==
all this rare stuff
that I totally wanted
And then I was just looking
through one last bin
and I saw the original
Pentagram record
It was just a purple logo
against black
It kind of looks like garbage
on the front
You turn it around
and there's this like
scary-ass picture of the band
I was with my girlfriend
at the time
and we were just like
crazy record collectors
and just go blow all our money
on records and beer
and then just have like
Friday and Saturday night
listening to records
[hard rock music]

Man as soon as we put that
on the turntable
that's like nothing
I'd heard before
Really I mean it was just
so fucking heavy
This was the only Pentagram
that was released
and the only one I knew of
I thought this was the beginning
of Pentagram
I was working
at an indie record label
and I was telling everybody
about it that I knew
and someone said
"Oh yeah man
"I get stuff no one's even
heard about before
from the '70s
heavy hard rock"
[music slows to a stop]
I was like
"Come on how can this be?"
I was obsessed with this band
So he brings in this CD-R
Here it is man
a record that literally
changed my life
I couldn't wait you know
just to get out of work
and go home and listen to it
At that point
I was riding a bike to work
and I remember just riding home
as fast as I could you know?
Just like a little kid
from school
I rolled a joint==
it was a special occasion
I rolled a big joint
[lively drumbeat]

And that first song
Forever My Queen,
I mean
just fucking phenomenal
[heavy metal music]
- I'm running away
with myself
I think I ran
a little too far
Your love is more than
a tease
- I couldn't believe it
Some of the best hard rock
I've ever heard
I mean lyrically
his vocal delivery
Just the guitar in it
was out of control
I mean for the early '70s
I couldn't believe it
And mostly
not only was it brilliant
but aside from that why doesn't
everyone talk about it?

What's the equivalent
of hearing something like this
for someone who's just obsessed
by music?
It's a profession and their
passion and their private life
It'sit's hard to explain
It's literally like being
a devout Christian
and walking down the street
one day and bumping into Jesus
and he knows your name
and shakes your hand
and asks you over for dinner
and drinks
[laughs]
You know?
And he calls you on the weekends
to go out
I mean
l==I can't explain it
My whole life I've just been
obsessed by music
It's all I wanted to do
with my life
And the only things
that made me truly happy
were finding
an awesome record
I was just completely driven
and obsessed
I mean I was completely
in love
and I just couldn't wait
to make other people
fall in love with this
- Willing and we both
know how
Baby you're gonna be
my queen
A king always knows
what he means
- It was the perfect time for
Bobby Liebling and Pentagram
to kind of==
to be rediscovered
I wouldn't even say
they were a cult band
They were kind of a secret
at that point
But then there was
all this interest
in early '70s hard rock
There was a big
stoner-rock thing
There were a lot of bands
that just wanted to get
that early '70s sound
and then get back to the basics
in metal
All of a sudden
there's this band
Oh you know
they have unlimited number
of unreleased recordings
from the 1 970s
and there hasn't been like
years and years
of over-merchandising
or marketing
or anything like that
It was just like
this caveman found you know
frozen in the Swiss Alps
somewhere
that you cut out the block
of ice and bring it out
and there's a specimen there
that still has active DNA
Bobby Liebling is still
that frozen guy
[song ends]
[birds chirping]
- If you see anything that says
Pentagram like
Liebling Pentagram
blah-blah-blah project
or any of that on the CDs
we will find find for you guys
'cause you must hear this
This is more important to me
than any other shit
That's why you must hear
the stuff
[heavy metal music]
# You are the highway star #
Hey world premiere!
VH1 in the trash heap
[scoffs]

# Oh, take me away #
# I want to do it, baby #
Oh man I know I'll play again
I can't help it
Look I'm addicted
You know it's like heroin
I can get up there
and rock with the best of 'em

Cool E right here
# Wrapping your soul out
on evil #
[guitar solo soars]

[music continues in background]

- I thought he was very good
when he was younger
I don't==you know I didn't go
to many of his shows
I didn't want to make him
uncomfortable
but he did have a==
Would you please get
[speaks indistinctly]
Thank you
Excuse me
No not just as a mother
I was very critical of him
But I thought he had a==
just a natural instinct
to perform
And you couldn't stop him
even if we wanted to you know?
It was sort of inborn
- Far superior than
some of these real big bands
that I've seen
Big guys
that are making millions
[heavy metal music]
- Have you ever done anything
else besides rock and roll?
- Nothin'
Yeah this==
drugs
Sex drugs
rock and roll
Well I mean look at me
You know I'm an old soldier
right?
I've been doing drugs
I've been addicted to heroin
for 39
I've been addicted to crack
for about 22
I've been in off-houses
detoxes
You know that's why I smile
and tell people
"I'm alive man"
I'm not supposed to be alive
Uh did you see where
the piece of crack went?
The big piece of crack?
Oh my God look there's==
oh no that's a Band-Aid
- No, I know
It fell down into
- You saw it?
I mean the place is a hellhole
It's a shit-hole
It's a sloth house
and I hate it
That's why I want to get out
man
I don't like dirt see?
- You want to get out?
- Believe it or not yeah
Fucking A
I'm gonna get out
Are you kidding?
That looks like rat poop
It's not==
[heavy metal music]

# And these are gonna be
some of my last days here #
# I'm wasting away,
and time to #
- He's been close to death
ever since I've known him
I can't tell you
how many times
I get a message that he leaves
in the middle of the night
saying good-bye
- He didn't live a hard life
and then come back
and try and write love songs
He wrote songs from
the perspective of somebody
that was metaphysically
in the sub-basement
He's used that to make very
harrowing bone-chilling music
- Man I remember sitting
at the side of a train track
This was like where I lived
side of a train tracks
I found a boom box
in a dumpster
and the only tape I had
was Be Forewarned
He speaks truths that not many
people can see or know
It's pain
and it's empowerment
and it's just all these things
in one purely from the heart
It's almost like on a smaller
scale like my bible you know?
- The first time I ever saw
footage of Bobby
I never seen nothing like it
He definitely understood
the seductive powers
of rock and roll man
and he could just go from
this textbook rock-and-roll guy
and then all of a sudden just
crouch down like the devil
You know when you're a kid
man
that's about the fucking coolest
thing you can see
[laughs]
So
- There's something about
I guess the mystique of Bobby
He just has that persona
you know
and that charisma that people
just like latch on to
And then his drug addictions
and things like that
it's added to all that
but it's also a hell
for a lot of people
who've played in bands with him
over the years
I mean if you look on
the Pentagram Myspace site
on the left column
it's got all the prior members
of Pentagram
and it's you know==
it's like a list that long
- The potential's there
but you know
there's certain personal things
in his life
that are keeping him from
going all the way
[heavy metal music]
- Even though I talked to him
and seemed like
it was a dead end
the guy's got some kind of fight
in him
He's got a flame
that won't go out man
I wanted to start a fire
with it you know?
So today we're headed down to
uh see Bobby
Um
I have a toll coming up
Do you want to do this
after the toll?
[cars whooshing]
- Thank you
- Thanks
So today I'm gonna go down
I have notes and an outline
of what I think the plan
should be
And even if we get
a contract signed
and it takes us forever
to start recording
shit can fall apart man
So we really
got to fucking move on it
and move on it fast
and make it happen
You know what we're gonna get
a fucking record made
God damn it
[laughs] I hope
Practically speaking
the one thing I can do
for Pentagram and Bobby
is give 'em good direction
And something I mentioned
to him
like "Bobby you know what?
You're fucking almost dead man
Unfortunately it sucks"
He tells me this
all the time
"So you got one more shot to
really make another big mark"
And that's what I really want
to help Bobby do
It just has to happen
There's got to be a final
finale chapter
in the story
of Bobby Liebling
[birds chirping]
I really think that you guys
can do it
and come back together
and do a great record
I haven't even started
negotiating the contract yet
at all
It's just figuring out
if they're interested
figuring out what
they're willing to give
for an advance
We also have to figure out
Geof and Greg or whatever==
are willing to be
on the record
So part of the reason I want
to go with Housecore dude
is Philip is the contemporary
hard rock hero right?
You are the dude
from the past
He's gonna bring you
huge visibility
So what we need to do is
we're gonna lay out a budget
that we're all gonna
have to agree to
and we're all gonna
have to stick to
and I want to see this shit
happen
I have too much time
invested in it
to not even follow through
at this point
So what I'm gonna do is
I'm gonna record him
Backlash, Suffering,
and Everything's
Turning To Night
and hand it to him backstage
at the Down show
But the other thing is==
too is
it's my word
I'm giving to them you know?
Before all this happens
make sure that you're
and we're gonna go with it
So this what I'm handing you
is my final==
my final effort
to fucking help you
and try to fucking put a great
record on the history books
- You know what I want to do?
I want to live
I want to live a little man
- Well here's the thing
- I want to live
I don't want to die anymore
- We do this record bro right?
Hopefully it'll help you
get out of here
We're gonna figure out what
we're gonna get for percentages
what your royalties
are gonna be all that stuff
- I have to eat
I have to make a living
I can't==I can't do this
irresponsible little
crying child trick forever
I can't
I've been Peter Pan
my whole life man
There's times
you do something
I want me back
I'm tired of giving me out
and giving up and running away
I run away with you know
the old piece of glass
you know?
If I smoke any crack after
today you can have my records
How about that?
I'll put it on the camera
- "If Robert Liebling smokes
crack after today 1 0/1 2/07
"Demian Fenton
and Sean Pelletier
will own Robert Liebling's
entire record collection"
- Before you do it
it should say "1 B"
Possession should take place
only if and after 9 days==
you know==
It's up to you
I don't care
- We're not gonna take
your records
We just want you to stop
smoking crack
- Yeah yeah
- Sign this
- No but you should put
- Do you want me to hold
the crack when you sign that?
- You know what I mean?
[heavy metal music]
- Throughout Pentagram's career
they've really come so close
to really making it
- Our manager at the time
Gordon Fletcher
one of the two managers
knew a lot of people
in the business
and he knew Gene and Paul
in KISS
So we had this set up for them
to come see
one of our rehearsals
- It was in a basement of
a house that I was living in
Wasn't really a heavy metal
studio let's say
- The day that KISS
was going to be arriving
Greg and Vincent had to work
and they were working
as janitors
- So unfortunately Vincent
a brilliant guitar player
and Greg heavier-than-hell
bass player
were off cleaning toilets
I don't know
If KISS was coming
to my house to watch my band
I would quit my fucking job
I wouldn't even go to==
never mind going to work
that day
- # All right #

- So Gene and Paul show up
Toilet boys are still at work
Not only were they off
cleaning toilets that day
but they hitchhiked to work
- They didn't have a car
They had to hitchhike home
wearing some type
of janitor-type outfit
[car horn honks]
- I guess we got off work
Vince and I did
and we got to the house
We're all grubby
from being janitors
[laughs]

- The landlord who I guess
lived in the house
started bitching and complaining
that it was too loud
and had to shut down
- Came running
"Man you guys
got to turn it down!"
And I'm like "God damn it man
KISS is here" you know?
- Fucking KISS is in the house
watching them play
You think they'd give
the landlord something
Some peanut butter sandwiches
and 25 bucks
to fucking go away
for the day
But you know so it was just==
I guess it was just horrible
From what I hear KISS
some of the things
they said are
"Well your name's Pentagram
There's only four of you
"The singer and the bass player
have bad skin
The drummer's too fat"
And they blew it
I mean should have taken
the day off from work
fucking did a month of aerobics
fucking got some Oxy pads
you know?

[birds chirping]
- Should I pull 'em out?
Some Enchanted Evening
My son has the platinum
Some Enchanted Evening
I'm told that
the Johnny Winter is platinum
I'm told that Blue Oyster Cult's
first three records
have gone gold
but Sony is too cheap
to send me gold records
Uh this is
I had done at least a couple
of Blue Oyster Cult records
I was looking for the real thing
to follow Blue Oyster Cult

Pentagram really seemed like
sort of a street Black Sabbath
That was just what I was
looking for you know?
I wanted the male-dominant
thrust of heavy metal
But it sort of had a "Fuck you
and the horse you rode in on"
kind of thing
Post-Page pre-Sex Pistols
It was almost as though
I'm sitting at a computer==
if there were such things then==
kind of generating this band
that was perfect for 1 97 4
I was ready to seriously
seriously commit to them
[heavy metal music]
- Here was our big break
Columbia records is paying for
us to go do a demo in New York
- And you know we're
on the train to New York
Man I'm seeing stars
in my eyes
- We went into the studio
and did three tracks
with Murray Krugman
producing it
- We get through
all the rhythm tracks
and Bobby's laying down
the vocals
- Bobby completed
a vocal track
and Murray said
"Okay that's fine
Come in and listen to it"
And Bobby says "I'd like to==
I'd like to redo that
There was a couple parts
I wasn't really happy with"
Murray says
"Don't worry about it
We'll fix it in postproduction
Just==it was fine"
- We could have corrected
that vocal
but there would have been
some other thing
where he's hearing a finished
$200000 record in his head
and can't understand why
an eight-hour demo
isn't gonna give that to him
- And Bobby got real upset
about it
and called Gordon
who was our manager
out into the singing booth
- "Gordon
can I see you a minute?"
Pain in the ass I was
Called him out in the main room
Made sure I was by a live mic
I said "What's this guy being
such a fucking asshole for?"
- Murray just got up
and as I recall
he didn't say a word
Vincent thought
he said we were
the most difficult band
to work with and walked out
I don't recall him saying
anything
I just recall him getting up
and walking out of the studio
without saying a word
And we never talked to him
again
- I felt like killing Bobby
- I've fantasized
many many times
if Bobby had just said
"No problem" you know
and walked in and we'd listened
back to the session
What would have happened
the rest of that day?
What would have happened
the rest of that week?
And what would have happened
with the rest of our career?
- We would have gotten a deal
through them
No question
Record deal national tour
fame and fortune
It would have happened
There
but for the grace of God
[announcer speaking indistinctly
over television]
- I used to say to him
"When I see you
on Saturday Night Live,
I'll know you made it"
And you know
I've seen some lousy acts
That shocks me
Bobby Pellet's here
- Hehe's here?
- Yeah
- Good lord
- Everybody in unison==
I mean total==
"Move him out of your house"
- Everybody everybody
I mean to this day
There's always tons of laundry
around here
I don't know
He can change three times a day
He's already changed twice
today
He keeps spilling his coffee
- Even now everything that
he has comes from us
- How much have you given
for Bobby?
- Financially?
- I have
- Financially
over $1 million
- Thanks appreciate it
- All right good
Brush your hair?
- There's Fig Newtons
aren't there?
Mom?
There's Fig Newtons
aren't there?
Yeah
- I've always been afraid
that he'd either go out
and steal
or knock somebody
You don't know
Addicts are crazy
- It's a very tough thing
They call us enablers
I said "Really?
"Did you ever see my son?
Do you know him?"
"No"
"And you're in
social services?
Where is your sensitivity
to people?"
His brilliance
in the music field
has never been to fruition
because of the problem
He has all this talent now
- Yes he still has talent
- He has it
- Do you guys think that Bobby
could stop doing drugs?
- [sighs]
- At this stage of the game
of anybody you know
it's a prognosis question
- Yes
if he were out of pain
He's in a lot of pain that
people don't realize that
And he also has truthfully
a delusion
that he has
a parasitic infection
Bobby's not insane but he can
act insane with the coke
- My fingers turn black
every night
There it's starting now
That's not from the coke
That's all parasites
See those dots that look
like dots embedded?
- Mm-hmm
- All of them
Did you see my lips?
They're not chapped
Come here
See the line
along the bottom?
- Mm-hmm
- That's all parasites
See all that black?
Those are all parasites
- Holy fuck man
- Yeah
- Never saw it huh?
with that
- See when he starts
pulling his skin
he does what he thinks==
he calls "debriding"
He'll pull at it
and put it on
a piece of paper towel
and pull out
his magnifying glass
and he'll come==
"You never want to look
You never want to look"
I said "I've spent 1 0000 hours
looking Bobby
It's not bugs
It's dead skin"
If he didn't pick his arms
I know they'd heal
and I know
everything would be fine
- It's a fact
I have something unknown
that is parasitic
- Truth is that she said
you've been to the hospital
about 50 times
since you lived here
- Mm-hmm
- We're gonna be there for
eight hours in the waiting room
and they're gonna let you out
Unless you go there and say
you want to go to detox
and then they'll admit you
- They're not gonna treat me
for this in detox
- I've watched you smoke
a fuckload of crack right now
- Mm-hmm
- It's in your blood
- Mm-hmm
- They're gonna get you in
Then once you're in there
you're away from this
maybe you can heal more
- I want to go
to the hospital
not that I want to go
in rehab
I want to go to the hospital
because if I'm not treated
for this
I'm gonna die
[somber piano music]

It makes me nasty
It makes me confused
Probably 'cause it's eating
my organs away
Probably 'cause it is eating
my brain
All I do is cry all night
and pray to God to die

- I've taken Bobby here
a few times
I know he's intent on getting
his hands and arms addressed
and that rehab is
a secondary solution
And as far as what he was saying
suicide being
the third solution
I don't==I wish he wasn't
going through any of this
but there's nothing
that I can do
except just support him
you know?
You know Bobby would be
the first to tell you
years back
he kind of made that deal
with the devil right?
He kind of sold his soul
and he's fighting like hell
to steal it back
one piece at a time
- So what are they gonna do?
'Cause I feel comfortable
in these places
more than I do
in my own home
I like hospitals
That's sick
but I love hospitals
Pellet has been==
has been like a god to me
He's basically a godsend
I love him
I love all you guys
You know for coming here
Thank you very very much
[somber music]
- On Sundays we'd take him
to this little deli
and they had a jukebox
There he was only
a year and a half there
So he'd go over there
and bounce to it
and he'd turn around
You load 1 6 tons
what do you get?
He sang Tennessee Ernie Ford
And everybody "Look at that
little boy" you know?
He had quite a good childhood
- He had an excellent childhood
- Later teens he used to walk
in the door
He'd step in that door
right away
Before he even saw him
he'd yell out
"Did you cut your hair?"
That was I mean every night
That's when they kind of had
a little parting
because of his hair
and lifestyle and so forth
A lot of Bobby's problems
I believe subconsciously
is an innate competitive thing
with his father
- I think she's right
She's right in that
She's right in that
I worked for eight
secretaries of defense
Originally appointed by
President Johnson
kept on by Nixon
and by President Ford
Where the hell
did you find that?
I always looked up to people
who were in our society
Very very responsible
And I want my son
to have been like that
- Joe
but he's not
- I can't do anything
about it now
- What I want for Bobby
just for him to be happy
- Just for him to be==
- To find a good woman
- Two different categories
- Why?
He needs that Joe
- I just want him to be well
Within the range of normalcy
With that of course
goes then to societal things
that she's talking about

[windshield wipers swishing]
- To play the next message,
press one
[electronic beep]
- Hey, Dem
It's Pellet
Listen, I'm just giving you
a quick call
I finally heard from Bobby
after weeks of him being
missing in action
He's been in Philadelphia,
of all places
Dude, he met some
young hot girl named Hallie,
and he's been up here
spending time with her
She supposedly is not
a drug addict
I'm not sure
what the whole deal is,
but I just thought
I'd tell you
It looks like there's gonna
be some forward motion,
'cause he's psyched
and really positive
Give me a call
when you get this, okay?
See ya
- This message will be saved
- The way he met her
from what I understand is
she was a fan
They were speaking on the phone
quite a bit
so she came one time
with her cousin
Then a couple of weeks later
she invited him to visit
And that's how it started
He's been going to Philly
nearly every weekend
Do you have an elevator
at 201 South 1 3th?
He got an apartment==we got him
an apartment I should say==
in Philadelphia
just a few blocks from her
So he'll have to come in
through the front?
Is it wide?
Because he has a very wide sofa
Apparently they're in love
Or whatever you know?
[laughs]
I don't know if it's==
I shouldn't say this==
in love or in lust
but
[laughs]
[heavy metal music]

- Yeah I was very very Ionely
down here for a long time
but uh
I'm not Ionely anymore
because I have a==
very much a purpose you know?
Perfect time to meet Hallie
About time somebody loved Bob
for Bob again
There's been nobody a long time
who's loved Bob for Bob
Nobody loves me like Hallie
Nobody
I've never loved a woman
like Hallie in my life
Never in my life
and never will again
- He's got to take
winter boots
I don't care what he says
Are they that bad?
They're dorky he says
Just for the snow
Are they that dorky?
Huh?

Tell him he needs some lamps
- I got everything like that
- You got the coconut oil
- Don't worry about that
- All right where is it?
[clattering]
[hissing]
[all coughing]
- You know that fire
that just started?
Right as the flames
hit the stove
this fell off Bob's neck
Now how fucking weird is that?
That's weird
'Cause you were here==
Them flames came out of nowhere
right?
Out of fucking nowhere
This popped right off his neck
right as the fire started
Do the math
One bad omen after another
dude
I don't know
I think Bobby
might just be back
I hope this girl is everything
he thinks man
I don't know her
Yeah I hope it works out
But between the cross breaking
and the fire the snow
fucking
I'm starting to wonder man
[door clattering]
- All right
I'll see you later
- Good luck
- Wish me luck
- Make it
- Yeah I'm gonna make it
There ain't no question
about that
- Are you boxed in?
- We'll see you again
all right?
- Drive careful
- Love you!
[somber piano music]

- Oh boy
I just hope he's happy
that's all
Hope he's happy
[sniffles]

- So today is Bobby's birthday
He loves carrot cake
He gets an annual carrot cake
every year
There's no room to write
"Happy birthday Bobby"
without interfering
with the carrot symmetry
so we're just gonna go with
a Pentagram
with maybe a 54 in the middle
I guess uh
I get a little leeway
since I'm not a decorator
- I think 54's not that old
- Huh?
- 54's not that old
- No I don't know is it?
- I mean it's old
- Get out of here!
[laughs]
- But it's not that old
At first glance when people see
me and Bobby
walking down the street
together
they either think
A he's my father
or B
he's my sugar daddy
or you know a pimp
or something like that
But he's an endearing person
and I'm certainly not in it
for the money
because he has none
And I just==
I enjoy his company
I feel very kindred to him
regardless of the age gap
My cousin and I had a theory
that he and his mother
were the same person
like an Anthony Perkins
like Psycho sort of thing
You're gonna have us like
locked in a closet
with your mother's corpse
I don't find that I have
anything in common
with guys my age
I've always liked
since I was young
in terms of looks
guys that have you know
goofy features
like caricature features
and I just have an odd taste
in men
That's just the way it is
- All right Bobby!
- Who bought the candles?
It has a freaking pentagram
on it
No wait hold on==
The change is pretty massive
To my understanding he was
smoking toxic amounts of crack
- Make a wish
- He went from that to this
and has smoked no crack
since he moved to Philly
- Whoo!
- He's been through
so much more life than me
But it's the kind of
like life
where you don't really grow
as a person
He's kind of remained
frozen in time a little bit
and I kind of like that
about him
I mean in his heart too
he'll always be young
I think
You look good in those pants
He looks pretty
- Long as she can say that
that's okay by me baby
I'm doing all right then
Now I'm still here
If I can have someone
as beautiful as this
say I'm pretty
something's happening here
- # Loving you #

# Well, it takes away
the blues #
- And now it's so crazy
watching you know him
in this short amount of time
grow up
and make up for the time
where his growth was like
really stunted
Stuff where he would have
no clue what to do before
like his debit card
checking account
the social security card
he doesn't have a problem
with that stuff anymore
He's gotten the hang of it
- I don't miss him
I really don't
There's a nice sense of peace
now
- I do a great deal
- He misses him terribly
- A great deal
The fact that he is using
whatever strength he has left
to preserve whatever
self-confidence he has
is something
that I am proud of
He commented on the phone for
the first time today actually
"I love you Dad"
- It's amazing
the transformation in this guy
He looks good
He sounds good
It's the person I thought
or hoped I'd be dealing with
from the get-go
He's been jamming with
other musicians
He just seems kind of
more focused
and definitely more in touch
with music lately
- The Hallie situation
I hate to talk so much
about it
but it is really that integral
in my life
Hallie Liebling
I got mad love
for Hallie Liebling
Yep
She's gonna be my Liebling
She's my little Liebling

- We're about three hours and
Finally going to meet
the infamous Geof O'Keefe
after talking to him for==
gosh I don't know
When you're in a record store
and you pick up that record
man
you just almost don't know
what you're in for
Not only is it a journey
of the mind
but sometimes
it's a real exodus man
I fell in love with this band
and now I feel like I'm kind of
becoming part of the story
It's a friggin' honor
I wouldn't trade it
for anything in the world
Bobby makes my fucking hair
fall out
I'm telling you dude
But at the end of the day it's
gonna be worth it you know?
It really is
Fucking psyched
People are gonna be able to dig
a new record man
That's kick-ass enough for me
Geof is such an important part
of the formation
of this awesome band
I'm hoping we really get Geof
excited about it as well
and he's willing to
you know deal with Bobby
and forget about the past
or deal with some of the
bullshit for the greater good
which is gonna be an awesome
new Pentagram record
from the==with the original
members you know?
And new members too
[heavy metal music]


- "Pentagram has not only
developed
"a small but faithful following
in the Washington area
but major record companies
have also taken an interest"
Well
[laughs]
Think it was a bar of soap from
Ramada Inn New York City
when we did that
Columbia Records session
So I'm guessing
- Yeah it smells like failure
- [laughs]
Oh man
Bobby and my special project
The Douche Bags
by The Douche Bags
- "A friend told me he heard
from a connection
"that Bobby left and Pentagram
now has a female singer
"If this is true
I'm doomed
"It seems unlikely
but anything's possible
Christ I got to know"
- "These two talented musicians
make up
"one of the most successful
and popular bands today
"Between the two of them
"they play a wide range
of instruments:
bass lead guitar drums
female organ and leslies"
- [laughs]
"We'd like to wreak metal havoc
in Britain
"The only problem so far is
we can't get out
of Washington"
- "Pentagram closed the show
with a nightcap
"Any finesse got crushed
and pushed aside
by a boring tidal wave
of sound"
[laughter]
Well this just shows
where things had ended
December '7 6
"Singer wanted
"Former members of Pentagram
"require a singer
of professional caliber
"in the David Coverdale/
Paul Rodgers mold
We do not want a singer
with an ego problem"
I met Bobby Liebling
in probably 1 967 '68
I noticed that he was carrying
record albums with him
a lot of times
on the school bus
and I was just starting
to get into cool music
He was playing in a band at the
time called Shades of Darkness
He was doing stuff that I was
only dreaming about==
playing in bands and going out
with girls and all this stuff
So I really kind of idolized
this guy
Coming out of the psychedelic
hippie '60s
and going into the '70s
it was really a sense
of artistic freedom
like there were no boundaries
We could do what we wanted
wanting to make music
and make movies
We weren't conscious of being
in any type
of situation
or artistic environment
We just knew we wanted to do
what we wanted to do

I have really good memories
of Bobby
from a certain period of time
to a certain period of time
And then bad things started
to happen
and there was a few years
of that
and eventually
I just decided
"I don't want any part
of this"
There was just
too much negativity to==
outweighing the positive
you know?
Things got so bad
with the relationship
between our managers
Skip and Tom
And the band wanted to know
what was going on
because they were still
our managers
so Skip said
"Well you can interview me
"but just you know
write down the questions
"and come out
with your tape recorder
and I'll record the answers
onto a tape recorder"
- One, two, three, four
- Skip basically didn't want
to be around Bobby
So we had to conduct
our band interview
with our own manager by tape
- How do you expect to promote
the single wholeheartedly
when you won't even meet with
the band you're producing?
Skip?
- First of all, I don't expect
to promote
- Bobby's very driven
with what==
and very passionate about
his music and that's good
But I have a feeling that
over the years
that's been you know==
one of Bobby's main problems is
the freedom of Bobby
doing nothing
except sex drugs
rock and roll
I mean that is it
to a tee
And I realize
some people say
from an artistic standpoint
"Bravo" you know?
"You've got your vision
You're sticking to it"
On the other hand
you know
everyone that's been with you
has walked away over the years
or fled in terror
because they realize you're not
ever gonna compromise
or you know cooperate
I haven't talked to Bobby
in over 20 years
It would be really cool
to go into the studio with Bobby
and do a real album
for the first time
rerecord some old stuff
write some new stuff
'Cause I'm proud of that stuff
And if 30 years later
people are finally discovering
that music
and you know posting things
online about
"Oh this band is so amazing
This drummer kicks ass"
and stuff like that
When I read stuff like that
it's like "Wow really?
Thank you"
On the other hand everyone who
tries to do this with Bobby
winds up getting crapped on
It winds up being a disaster
of mega proportions
because Bobby will do something
to screw it up
I don't want to go do something
that's a high publicity thing
and have it fall apart
and be a laughingstock
I don't want to do it
- She hasn't called me
You know
got 1 7 minutes left
I can't==
my phone's gonna run out
I got
- Your call cannot be
completed
- My call can't be completed
as dialed
Come on please answer
honey
The thing that people
don't realize
is that Mr Evil==
whoo!
Pentagram dih-dih-dih-dih
yadda yadda yadda
Man under this shell
and this put-on
all I want to do is eat
take care of my loving
other half
in a bed that's comfortable
next to a warm soul
that I can give my soul to
because I'm not a bad guy
I'm really not a bad guy
underneath
I don't mean to do the things
I do wrong
You know I pray every night
to God
to forgive me for the things
I've done wrong
Hallie why are you
calling me an asshole
and saying that I hurt you?
- Because you did
- All I called to==
Listen all I said==
Can I say anything?
Can I say anything ever?
- It was just overkill
Hallie Hallie
Hallie Hallie
And you know it's great to be
in a relationship
but you just need
a fucking break
He was talking about marriage
I mean from the get-go
the first thing Bobby told me
was
"I have a new girlfriend
and I'm gonna marry her"
And it's just all these things
like compounded
on this poor girl
and she's just bound to break
- Yeah well not dealing==
You said it
I didn't
She hung up on me again
[somber music]
It's over
There's nothing to live for
[phone line trilling]
- I can come over
and can listen to music dude
Music's a powerful drug
- What do you say?
- What Hallie said?
- Yeah
- No candy-coating
This isn't easy for me dude
And I don't==but I'll tell ya
I mean
Last night he didn't want
to see me
Today
he didn't want to see me
He doesn't want to see anybody
He's just really affected
He's fucking crushed
- Now that this Hallie thing's
coming down man
I could just sense Bobby
just trying to find
any excuse to fucking relapse
and go back and start
smoking crack
I can start feeling it happen
Bobby listen to me
It seemed like last time
we hung out
I just got a feeling that you
might have smoked crack
Did you smoke crack
since you've been here?
- No
- Philip's playing here in a
couple weeks with his band Down
He's got to be clean for that
Their hesitation
the business side of it
is giving money to
a drug addict man you know?
And he's got
to be fucking clean
to back up me telling them
that he's clean
and is gonna be able to do it
you know?
If he shows up fucked up
it's gonna fuck it up
[bluesy rock music]


- Being a person that has dealt
with his own demons and won
- That's the truth
- I just hope that one day
maybe he can do the same thing
you know?
It would be a beautiful thing
man
- Appreciate that
From the heart
- Wow
Can I eat anything I want?
Can I taste a piece
of pineapple?
- You sure?
- Get some
- Mmm
Well they got it all
The way it's supposed to be
- Man I got like so many
Pentagram t-shirts
It's an honor having you here
man
There's just so much respect
Personally I'm sick of hearing
people say it's too late
- Nah
- It's never too late
- Never never never
- You know there's a lot
of people you know
"Dude there's no way
he can come back"
- How many times have we been
written off?
- No I know man
- If we're gonna get straight
to the bone and shit
There is this wave
that I'm sure you're aware of==
young musicians that are
discovering Pentagram
That's a gift my brother
- Sure it is
- It's a fucking gift
- Sure it is
- And it's enough of a gift
for you to give yourself
a fucking break man
You've got your fucking health
- I'm giving myself a break
I kicked $300 of rock
six Xanax bars
and a 1 0-pack of dope==
cold turkey
- How's that throat feel?
- Fine
- You can sing
- Oh I can sing my ass off
- Really?
Are you ready?
- Yeah well you're the man
with the money
- Well you're the man with
the fucking record
that needs to kick fucking ass
too
- Believe me if you've heard
all my records
I ain't done no record in my
opinion that hadn't kicked ass
- You know what?
Robert I'd be proud
to fucking do this
I really would man
- We're coming now Phil
- Stand up
- They're on stage
- All right man
- I love you baby
- Me too buddy
- It's great great to meet you
man
- Yep I hope we can do
something brother
- Philip!
We got to go!
- Let's go brother
- Come on!
We're on the way
Have a good show bro
[cheers and applause]
[somber music]
- You know I take him up
to meet Phil Anselmo
and everything's pretty much
all set up
On the fucking way home
instead of focusing
on the positive
he's still focusing on Hallie
So as soon as we drop him off
he literally got out of the car
thanked me all of a sudden
his eyes start to tear up
and he says he doesn't want
to go home
to an empty apartment
He's just
he's at the end
Again
- I'm in the shower!
Five minutes!
- Can we come in?
- Uh yeah you can come in
You can step over this shit
Just stay out of here
I'm on record
at Jefferson Hospital
of being epidemically covered
in scabies
so is everything in
the whole goddamn place
You think I'm lying?
I can prove every bit of it
- Well let's talk
You don't have to prove it
to me
Just please get ready==
- No I have to prove it
to everybody
'cause it's cocaine cocaine
cocaine cocaine!
Buh-buh-buh-buh-buh!
- [sighs]
The only thing I see here
is a fucking syringe
- Yeah there is a syringe
There's a syringe crack pipes
all kinds of shit around here
I quit
A mega dose of methadone
Mega heroin
piggybacking it
Cocaine 75% or more
dropped in the course
of less than a month okay?
- I give you huge credit
for that
but there's still a 25% that's
keeping you from making music
- No it's not
- And keeping you from making
real friends that care
- Look I gave up 99 out of 1 00
I'm not Superman
What do you want me to do?
Conquer the world overnight?
You're asking too much of me
now
I'm on the verge
of a nervous breakdown
over all this drug shit
- You have so much talent
and you're smoking crack
on your couch
It's heartbreaking
- How much life do you think
I have left?
I think the damage is done
Far and above
[scoffs]

- New message
[phone beeps]
- Hi, Demian
It's Diane
I haven't heard from Bobby
since Friday
Truthfully, I don't think
he's gonna last much longer
I just have a feeling
Either he's gonna overdose
or do something stupid
And he's hung up on that
Hallie thing like crazy, so
I can't kill myself anymore
over it,
and what will be, will be
- New message
[phone beeps]
- Hi, Demian
It's Diane
We still haven't heard
from Bobby,
and now we're really
extremely concerned
Please call me
[clears throat]
Thank you
Bye-bye

- New message
[phone beeps]
- I found out where Bobby is
It's called CFCF,
under the prison system
They took him there
I don't know where it is
I don't know how he is
I'm sure he's suffering,
and we don't know what to do
So when you get a chance,
you call
Bye-bye

[music ends]
- Philadelphia Prison Systems
"Curran-Fromhold
Correctional Facility
Philadelphia Pennsylvania"
Bobby's got a restraining order
on him
which clearly says you cannot
fucking call Hallie
He had fucking called Hallie
Hallie picked up the phone
and said
"That's it
Now you're going to jail"
Click
I mean this is a huge
reality check
What's harder than jail?
What's the next step?
Death?
Who the fuck else is gonna
fucking do this for him?
I hate to sound like a dick==
I feel like I've just been==
I'm getting grizzled
and pricky
through this whole
fucking process
He's completely surrounded
by chaos that he creates
but it sucks everybody up in it
that's around him
And maybe
I said this already
but this past two weeks
I was almost glad
that he was in jail==
just the fact that I know
he wasn't somewhere
hurting himself
and I could concentrate
on my life
and what I really needed
to get done
'Cause if I didn't get
this shit done
I can't do anything for him
So we'll see
See fucking work calls
right now
$260 of bail
$1 5 parking later
we're finally on our way
They told==
after bail went through
they told us we have
four to six hours
before he's released
so it's a total guessing game
No one can give us any kind
of straight answers
So we kind of cut the wait
in half
We're headed there now
It's dark
I'm sure Bobby is freaking
to get out
You know the one thing
he talks about that he wants
I'm sure more than anything
is a bacon pizza
which is all he eats
by the way
Anything bad for his heart
Bobby Liebling will do it
[laughs]
Love drugs bacon
His life
[laughing]
What's going on now is
every time I fucking come
to get him out
there's some other thing
going on
They told me
an hour and a half
We just went and waited
somewhere for over an hour
We come back
"Oh we've got no one
downstairs"
I'm like "Here's his name
He's been processed
We paid at 3:00 today"
"Well there's no one
downstairs
"I tell you what if he's
not out within 1 5 minutes
"he's gonna get out
on the next shift
which is uh
So that probably means
the next shift starts at 1 2:00
so who knows
when he's gonna get out
So we got to park
across the street
which is like Mister==
at Mister Chubby's
which is fitting
'cause they're treating us
like fucking boners
So now we got to wait
and just watch
We got to watch across
the street
which you can hardly see
and we're gonna wait for him
to walk out of the gate
We can't wait here all fucking
night in the goddamn car
I skipped a whole day of work
today to bail him out
He's still not out
and now it's fucking up
my next day
So I don't know what to do
You know if we decide to leave
and come back in the morning
that's when he's gonna be
out here stranded probably
Know what I mean?
People keep asking me
you know
"Dude why are you even
hanging in there?"
I've grown to love him
as a friend
and I really believe in him
as a musician
I don't know
I'm really on the verge
of saying "Fuck it"
And just saying I tried
I really don't know
I keep going back and forth
But I keep feeling like
"Man don't fucking throw it all
away yet Pellet
because we're on the verge of
fucking something happening"
[somber music]
Cold in there?
- Huh buddy?
That's my buddy
[laughs]
There's my buddy see?
[all talking at once]
Had to hook you up right away
[all talking at once]
- How you doing, man?
- Uh doing like you know
- Is it all right?
- Here you go
"Help me"
I'm in prison again

- Hey you want some waters?
It's good to see you out dude
- Jesus
- I'm nervous that you're out
I'll admit it
I didn't have to worry about you
in jail
I knew you weren't doing
something dumb
- I knew that
I
Do you even know
how many hours
- Bobby obviously goes through
the same patterns
It's always he does good
for a couple weeks
and then shit falls apart
Bobby is just
Robert Liebling
He's a human
and he's got incredible demons
that he has to battle
every fucking day
That sounds cheesy but I think
Bobby really is just doing
all this stuff
'cause he just needs love

- There's nothing here
I have nobody I can call
that can try to help
I ain't got no relatives
I ain't got no brother
or sister right?
You know
Fuck it
I ain't got no kids
I can't deal with myself
I'm too immature
I can't handle it the pressure
you know what I mean?
I have nothing here
I thought I had a life here
I don't got nothing anymore
- I just got the new issue
of Rolling Stone
I found the perfect girl
for Bobby
She's fucking==
has no grip on==
they're in the same
reality space
but she's got money
and she's young and blonde
Fucking Britney dude
I'm making some fucking calls
right now
[laughs]
Bobby'd like her right?
[sighs]
You want some tea?
I started to realize
that Bobby and I
might not have had
the same goals
My goal was for him to focus
on the music
All I could get him
to focus to
when he was up here
was Hallie
Damn man it smells like
an old man's dirty pants
[coughs]
He got out of jail
Stuff just wasn't rolling
Phil Anselmo you know
caught wind of it
Bobby was kind of a mess
and in jail
And that's you know
totally put on hold
Bobby moved back home
with his mom
He did you know
typical Bobby kind of stuff
- Basement?
- Living in the sub-basement
You know?
But one good thing
that came out of it is
being back around
all that Maryland scene
there was people down there
who were just you know
willing to help him out
and got together
and got him psyched again
about playing music
[bass guitar melody]
I really think in a way
this is kind of
what he needed to do
He got a complete wake-up call
by going to jail
He got some love
As heartbroken as he is
I think he's got a little bit
of confidence from it
- Hey is this on?
Yes it is!
[echoes]
Okay
- Since he's had a full band
Bobby is just psyched
to play shows
We could definitely play DC
and probably do pretty well
But to make the biggest punch
to get the most out of press
and just to have
the biggest you know
appearance or profile
is gonna be New York City
[bluesy rock music]

So we chose New York
They're at a top-notch venue
We demanded a lot of money
We're getting it
There's also again
a lot on the line
because in the contract
that I have to sign
it says if the band does not
show up for whatever reason
if stuff doesn't happen
it's my name on there
that I'm responsible for
So what I really need
Bobby to do
is just focus again
on the music
- [muffled singing]

I'm just very confused
right now
There's this angel
I just wanted to talk to
while I was still
hanging around mortal
- Is that keeping you from
focusing on stuff or are you
- Ain't easy
Show must go on
But it ain't easy you know
Got to keep rocking
or I start crying
Sort of like that you know?

Come on!
[music stops]

- Every single thing you do
with Bobby Liebling has a risk
Whether it's a record
coming out
whether it's a show or whatever
it's a risk
I mean it definitely makes
shit exciting
But it's putting gray
in my beard you know?
- It surprises me people who
go out and buy advance tickets
for Pentagram shows sometimes
You know it's like man
I would just wait
until the night of the show
and go to the door
because why sink your money
into something
that you don't know is even
going to happen?
- It's kind of an uphill battle
right now
because the last couple shows
that Bobby played
are legendary==
a legendary mess
- Yeah there was this doom
metal festival or something
and this promoter guy goes
"Man I need you to play
this gig and headline this gig"
You know "You got to do it"
And I asked Bobby I said
"You think we can do it?"
[cheers and applause]
I went to play the gig
and it was packed with people
It's getting later and later
and Bobby doesn't show
Then Bobby doesn't show
And the club owner comes up
and goes "Man you got to play
They're gonna tear my club up"
I said "There's==I don't have
a singer here"
Unfortunately our singer
won't show up tonight
'cause he's just too
fucking cool for all of us
so let's give it a big
"Fuck you you asshole!"
Right?
- Fuck youl
- We're gonna play anyway
And I gave the microphone
to the audience
I say "It's Pentagram
karaoke night
Here you go"
[heavy metal music]

Then Bobby showed up at the last
two measures of the last song
I kicked him in the leg
and then
and I think I had a cordless
guitar that night or something
but I was playing from
behind the speakers
where he couldn't rock out
with me you know?
That's how it happened
and that kind of broke us up
really
I said "Forget it man
I can't do that again
Not at my age"
You know==shit
I'm almost 20 now so
- Come on,
you fucking junkiel
- Playl
- Play a song
you fucking junkie!
You fucking dope-shooter!
You fucking rip-off!
Bullshit!
- He's got this Jim Morrison
thing going on now
or something where you just
never know what's gonna happen
[heavy metal music]
The last
[laughs]
the last time he played
was The Black Cat show in DC
- Oh okay
The Black Cat incident?
That's like the incident
at Roswell
crammed in this place
and I'm going
"He's finally made it
Damn I'm glad I came tonight
You know this is great"
- People are fucking charged
You see the band
take the stage
Literally the guy next to me
is biting his lip
But there's something missing
Where's Bobby?
- Apparently he'd overdosed
And he fell asleep in my arms
like a baby
in the dressing room
Somebody knew
the rescue squad guy
They came and got him
and then they shot him up
with something
I don't know what
He goes "I'm ready to play"
- I see Bobby on the side
of the stage being propped up
Iooking like he's being
carried over to the stage
- Grabs a mic
and that was it
Stumbles backwards
falls on the drum riser
Crawls off the fucking stage
[audience catcalling]
- When he left it was in
the big freight elevator==
in a straitjacket
And there's orange lights
and instead of the doors
coming together like this
they shut like a mouth
a giant metallic mouth
and he was gone
I thought "That's it
That's the last time
I'll see him"
Man I'll remember that
the rest of my life
[somber music]

- You know I monitor
Bobby's Myspace page
Soon as you announce these
shows dude this thing lit up
It was just amazing
Every time I come on there's
all these friend requests
I had 1 2 pages
of friend requests
This might be fake
but Bobby would like it
[laughs]
One of the best things for me
dude==
this is a total triumph
This one kid says to me
"I only heard Pentagram
two months ago
"but I can't believe
the influence
it's had on my life already"
You know this is from like
this 1 9-year-old kid
so in the middle of nowhere
USA
who must have picked up a First
Daze Here record or whatever
and it's just changed his life
and it's the same thing
it did to me
and it's exactly what I want
to do with Bobby
Oh right here
"Love love love your music
"Saw the opening band
at a Witchcraft gig
"cover a tune of yours
The place went crazy"
"Pentagram forever
"Many many thanks
for this great music
I love it and I need it
every day"
And again just people
just rooting for Bobby
Look at this
It's great
It goes on and on and on
Again I just get choked up
'cause I'm a freaking
sissy-hippie butt
I'm not a sissy but
[laughs]
At first I got involved
with Bobby
I wanted to have Bobby's music
heard
That was the main goal right?
It was just pretty much
all about Bobby
Now at this point
it's become about me too
My whole life has been in music
My greatest accomplishment
to me personally is Pentagram
If I can't make it happen
then I've got to fucking wake up
and grow up
like my parents keep telling me
to do
Cut my hair
and get a goddamn job
It's gonna suck
[laughs]
[crickets chirping]
Bobby Hallie and I
texted each other
and she sent me a couple
of lengthy messages
that I can read if you want
She's not gonna be
at either show
There's no way in hell
I do know what this means
to you==trust me I do
- One of the nights
You know what?
- Let me put it this way
I've got so much invested
in this
I've gone beyond the deposit
I've spent my own money
on this
I need these shows to happen
I'll do whatever it takes
to make these shows happen
If it means fucking lying
to Hallie
and telling her
she'll get a $1 million
if she shows up
I'll do it
But I just don't have
high hopes
and you got to get it out
of your head
that she's gonna show up or not
And I know that
- So what else am I supposed
to do?
She basically said
Bobby is==
you know
in not so many words==
off his rocker
doing cocaine again
You have to go down
to Germantown
get him out
of the sub-basement
and bring him to Philly
or he's not gonna play
these shows
So she knows
- Listen you got to leave
in ten hours
I don't know if she's wrong yet
or not
Your hair's not dyed
You should==
It's 1 0:30 at night
Your fucking clothes
aren't dry-cleaned
I should have went down
and got you
- [sighs] I hope so
- If you're doing what you said
you were gonna do
let's just do it
We're gonna get in an argument
we're gonna raise our voices
and your voice is gonna be
even
- I will promise you I will send
that text
Honestly Bobby I'm super
stressed out right now
and I'm just==
I'll send her that text
but I got to finish
this merch stuff
I got to do a bunch of shit
for the shows
- Please relax tonight
and take your bath and chill
and I'm gonna do
- Did you think this was
gonna go any other way?
- Yeah I did
because Bobby's been really
fucking focused lately
I mean he's been really
heartbroken over Hallie
and that you know
and any time
I need a ten-minute conversation
out of him
I figure it's gonna be an hour
'cause I got to==
which is fine
He's my friend
It's cool
I know what it's like to suffer
that way and it's cool
But through it all he's really
getting kind of focused
and it's like he's focused
to prove this to her
I mean you know
I think he thinks
if he pulls these two shows off
and shows that he can really
do it
he'll be able to take care
of her
and make money and all that
[sighs]
He's doing these shows
just for her
And now that she's not there
he doesn't want to do 'em
but he can't back out
I mean it's not just me
who's got money and time
involved in this
It's a lot of people
[somber music]

- # My final hour's
getting near #
# The time is getting close,
I fear #
# Footsteps at my door,
I hear #
# Time to pay for life
so dear #
# I want to flee,
but it's too late #
# My soul is in the grip
of fate #
# Close my eyes
and one last breath #
# Feel the cold, cold hands
of death #
- "Pentagarm"
"Pentagarm" it says
It does
It says g-a-r-m
That's all right
I live in hell anyway
What's the fucking difference?
- Check, uh
Uh-uh
Hey-hey-hey,
check-check-check
- Yeah there's my pants
That's all I'm wearing
for pants
It's just black tight pants
This I'm thinking is what people
like 'cause it's paisley
You know what I mean?
And it's very very old look
A '70 you know '60s whatever
It's hippie all right?
But
you can't out-flamboyant that
That's a motherfucker
isn't it?
I mean this is a true==
feel this thing
Feel how bizarre it feels
The first time that I started
using these clothes
did I think I'd be breaking
them out again?
I thought
I'd be throwing them out
but I don't know about
breaking them out
[laughs]
It's weird isn't it?
They're all my mom's
I just thank God above for
everything that has transpired
and the people have
phenomenally
astonished me
astounded me
with their devotion
and their mega support
And it's finally caught on
to the fact that
what goes
will always come back
- We came all the way from LA
for this
and it's a really important
night obviously
It's almost like Bobby's return
you know?
[poignant orchestral music]

- Hey everybody
in the whole place man
God bless all of you
and I mean it from the bottom
of my heart thank you
I mean it
- Thank you
- Thank you Bobby
- I truly mean it
God bless all of you
- Bobby!
[cheers and applause]
The legend!

[cheers and applause]
[crowd chanting]
Pentagram!
Pentagram! Pentagram!
Pentagram!
[cheers and applause]
- I love you
God bless all of you
[cheering and whistling]
I can't believe this is real
I mean I do
I want to thank you from
the bottom of my heart
and I mean this
deep down inside
[cheers and applause]
You came through
Without you I ain't
You get my message?
[heavy metal music]

[muffled singing]


[heavy metal fades]
[poignant orchestral music]


[cheering fades in]
[strings fade out]
[heavy metal fades in]

[cheers and applause]
Thank God for all of you!
[cheers and applause]
[indistinct chatter]
- Thank you
Thank you
- Made my fucking lifetime man
- Thanks Bobby
Thank you so much
I know you're tired
Thank you so much
- Bobby
that was fucking awesome
- That was great
- Thank you Bobby
That was awesome man
It was right on
- It was overpowering
I'm still feeling==
I'm getting choked up
I mean I went from laughing
like hysterically
to like crying
I just==I can't explain it
and for me
I just felt like a kid
To be on the side of the stage
and watching my favorite band
at their biggest show ever
and knowing I had something
to do with it I just==
it's like==it's a fucking
Christmas gift dude
You know?
It's fucking Hanukkah
Christmas and Kwanzaa
all in one
and Bobby Liebling delivering
the presents
It's fucking great
If it all falls apart now
I'm fucking happy as shit
If an arrow fucking comes
hits me in the head right now
I don't care;
I feel great
I'm just psyched dude
This is the best night
of my life really
- I'm alive
I'm alive
and that's something
that I would have never
expected
and three or four
hospital record books
say the same damn thing
But you know
who knows what
you got in the cards right?
You got to spin that wheel
[Southern accent] "Life is like
a box of chocolates
You never know
what you're gonna get"
[somber music]
[sizzling]
Okay
Come out and get your breakfast
baby
It's sausage and toast
Hallie?
Hal?
- Coming
- You want to come out and eat?
All right?
Here I'm gonna show them
half of the eggs
I had to scramble them
but they're==
Daddy makes a good breakfast
- After he played
the Webster Hall show
he started getting the ball
rolling again with his work
and had started like
at least trying
to get out of his parents'
and having something to do
rather than just sitting around
and destroying himself
I had always thought about him
He'd never left my mind
and I just called
to check on him
It progressed from there
From him coming back here
to visit and him being sober
we're just both really happy
and it's pretty harmonious
Like I like his intensity
because it's different from
what I am
and we meet like
somewhere in the middle
But it's not so outrageous
like how it was
It's a kind natural intensity
rather than craziness
It's really been incredible
to watch his metamorphosis
Bobby's like a miracle to me
I just have to kind of trust
my heart and my instincts
in this situation
I have had to a lot
like um
and just trust him
because he's more likely
to pan out the way
that I want him to
if I trust him sincerely
instead of you know
just half-ass
like
"Okay we'll see how it goes"
But like just having one foot
in the water
- [barks]
Here==I'm not supposed to do
this
but you can have one more piece
of toast
Here one more bite for you
is all
After the American tour we had
a very deep unified period
that I recall pretty well
of bonding with intent of
this is for eternity

- We got married
the end of November
- Day before Thanksgiving
- Yeah it was the day before
Thanksgiving
- You know right there
That's it
It's for life
You know love is forever
and love is for two
- I got to put it on
his joke-shop finger too
the one with the knuckle
cut out
As his wedding finger
We were getting married
and I was like
"Aw I get to put it on
his little fucked-up finger"
[laughs]
- [laughs]
- The cute little finger
- Yeah my joke-shop finger
- Yeah it's like
- It's like it doesn't have
any knuckle
- Yeah there's no knuckle
- We've been through
an awful lot
in the two-plus years
that we've you know
known each other
and now we're on paper
and this is
Mrs Robert Liebling
- I looked at all of your labs
Everything looks great
- I am very ecstatically
happily married
and uh expecting
There's a bun in the oven
I don't know another way
to put it you know?
It's gonna be corny anyway
but it's not corny to me
It's my whole life
We're gonna have a baby
- Hold this?
- Do you have names picked out
for girls or boys?
- Yeah we agree on nothing
- You can lie down
- We agree on next to nothing
- [laughs]
Sounds about right
[gentle orchestral music]
[static crackling]
It's like coming in and out
of my little machine
- Mm-hmm
- What a troublemaker
[static and rumbling]
Come on Come back
There we go
[heartbeat thumping]
Sounds perfect
Perfect
Right where it should be
[thumping continues]
That's great
- That's something I never
dreamt would ever come about
And um
look out world
There's gonna be another me
[laughs]

My peace of mind
depends on you
My space in time is here
with you too
Drop all your dreams
in the palm of my hands
Step in the blue light
fulfill my plans

Come with me now
the midnight calls
All are asleep
as the kingdom falls
Seeking our goals
as a life had planned
Walk in the blue light
you'll understand